audio by artist carey ott

Started in pursuit of happiness
Then came endless days of work for debt
As he looked up to the hypocrites
Heard the things they say but soon forget

Saw the sociopaths with their corporate cards
Blowing smokescreens with their liberal cause
Said he never would be one of them
Oh how slowly it crept into him

As it clouded up his conscience
He got caught up in the objects
Of G-R-E-E-D

Now a big fish in a bigger pond
Swimming with the sharks that brought him down
To the cesspool of his confidants
To the parties with the debutants
Blast the right-wing from his velvet tower

I want to tell you in my sleep that you inspire me
I want to paint you in a corner-colored gray
I want to argue make up over Kool-Aid
I want to meet you there and make you feel the same

What you do to me makes me think am I just one
What you do to me

You got a lot of things going on
Am I just one

I want to wake up with the dog at the doorjamb
I want to take you there and make sure you get home
It’s all fine if you divvy up give it up
Does this environment make you feel at home?

What you do to me makes me think am I just one
What you do to me makes me think

Expensive restaurants and cheap hotels
You can forget ‘til it makes no sense
Black black nights and promise rings
You can never get your mind back

Back to the way it was

When you were daylight for me
When the sky was so black you couldn’t see
Such a tiny star caught in a great big sea
You were daylight for me

Digital alarm clocks that crawl inside my ears
It’s a cold day in any city
Seems shit is hitting a big fan in the sky
And the war is only beginning

You’re still afraid of the dark

But you were daylight for me
When the sky was so black you couldn’t see

No more light so get used to the dark
Spend some time with the hurt that’s in your heart
Been sitting here many times before
You don’t need the key when you’ve broken down the door

But is it love and happiness
Or another hopeless little accident

Love can be too hard on your brain
Let it close your eyes for you and you’ll never see the same
Put a scar on your heart
It’s hard to change
Scar on your heart

You stayed clear for a number of years
You don’t face the facts and you never face your fears
If you fill your head up with history

I Wouldn’t Do That To You

Looking at the soft skin of yesterday’s light fall upon you
Rising up off the pillowy haze that we gaze through
It’s a song that I sing because I have to
I make a choice to raise my voice
But you’re hard to refuse

I wouldn’t do that to you
I wouldn’t do that to you
I couldn’t drag it out
You couldn’t settle me down
I wouldn’t do that to you

Peel off the yellowing pages of memories in black and white
When love was just a sweet idea we could lie beside
And it’s a price that we pay because we want to

Warsaw in winter
Flowery graves
Can you still hear them
Whisper your name
Afraid of the cold spots
Caught in the tree tops
Love is a dogfight
You’re losing your shelf life

I can’t crawl out of this space
Hours fade without a trace

All of you listening
To forfeited years
Forget what they taught you
Open your ears
All of the great ones
Asleep with the warm guns
Love is a dog bite
You’re losing your shelf life

Chorus

I’ll take a walk I shouldn’t take
I’ll try to speak like a friend
Or a man who’s had to much to drink
Or who’s not afraid to sink in

I’ll take my time up the stairs
Dangerously nice atmosphere
I shouldn’t stay here but I’ll have to see
While I’m living life for me dear

I’m feeling so outside

You make me think
You make me weak
You challenge me with love and you’re right
When you say that I don’t give you enough
‘Cause I save you for Virginia

Chorus

Virginia is for lovers

Fiction almost always made more sense to me
Snowflakes are the souls you’d never save
Faith is not a habit forming vice you bet
Luck is when you’re glad it never came

(Chorus)
When you get tired of kicking stones
Those broken bones will lead the way home
So many same days beginning to breathe strange
And have you the right to complain at all

Figured out there would be doubt it brought you here
Watch the time and slowly climb the stairs
Truth is just a word for what you want to believe
Facts are off-white politics are gray

When you get tired of kicking stones

Slow days
Like the grind was made to break you
But there’s a love that’s waiting at home
And it’s cold outside
But the wind can never break you
‘Cause the heart inside
Is warm enough to keep from feeling down
When you’re around

And we’ll all be well dressed tonight
And you know you feel all right
‘Cause you got love you got love you got love

It seems as though
Her heart could overtake you
But you’re still finding your own
You can’t sleep sometimes
You get so tired of dreaming
And you’re strung so high
You lie awake to overanalyze blue skies

Mother Madam

Now’s the time to break these chains
Now’s the time to pack these things alone
You’re a big girl in the same small town
Pick yourself up off the ground

Mother madam

It’s another sticky corporate afternoon
With all the simpletons out there on the moon
Now’s the time to break these chains
Now’s the time to pack these things alone

We wouldn’t leave here without you
We wouldn’t be here without you

Mother madam

Don’t get carried away so soon

Mom I couldn’t find you
You were lost outer space
Mom I would invite you to escape

I’m still thinking about Monday
Speaking in tongues with your eyes
You’re talking in your sleep about someday
Someday could be happening tonight

Don’t you know that I want you
But silence is a safer sound
Don’t you know that I like you
But love keeps pushing me down

Don’t be too hard on yourself
Don’t look too far ahead
Don’t be alarmed or appalled when you fall
It’s only love

Dreams keep flashing up old fears
Where fiction is stranger than the truth
I can’t tell if it’s my wishing well
But I was getting used to lying with you

Sunbathing

We smiled and smoked and hid away there
We talked of all our different lives
And I must have spoken a million words there
And these words I read across your skies
Your eyes

You were glossy eyed nostalgic
And I was broken down amazed
And we sat stoned from all the logic
‘Cause you knew that I was still afraid
And frayed

And you won’t believe me I can never make sense
Let’s catch a plane and never regret
It’s not that I want you but can you believe it
We just caught the sun bathing

And I leaned back against your shoulder

You can speak your mind
You can take it back once you say it
Darling it can’t be that bad
It can’t be that bad

You can cross the street
Holding out your hand to another thief
But they don’t bring you back
They don’t bring you back

You can swing that sleepy song
You can swim along in a lucid dream

You can take your time
You can thank the sun once you see it
Darling it don’t look like rain
It don’t look like rain

We can’t comprehend why we all are here
So we might as well enjoy it while we can
Enjoy it while we can

Chorus

(Carey Ott - ASCAP 2007)

Come to me
In our old haunt
If it were up to me
I never would’ve left our prison cell

Minutes tick
But she ain’t coming
You know it’s easier to think
Just knowing that now I may see myself

Like a song
We’re like a song
We’re like a song

Get a little drunk
All dressed up
I come to show you love
Now I’m thinking that I wanna fight

You’ve seen this place
A hundred times before
All the fictional nights
And days are just a recent episode

Like a song
We’re like a song
We’re like a song
(That never ends)

Like a song

Of ten things you might say leave off nine
Leave off nine
Of ten things you might say leave off nine
Leave off nine

No sound after the sound like a bell hung in the air
There are people everywhere

Fool me once shame on you fool me twice
Fool me twice
Fool me once shame on you fool me twice
Fool me twice

No sound after the sound like a bell hung in the air
There are people everywhere who care
No sound after the sound like a bell hung in the air
There are people everywhere
There are people everywhere
There are people everywhere

Waste not want not
Waste not want not

(Carey Ott ASCAP 2007)

Creating a scene for the screen
Maybe you’re not what you seem
Magick Alecks

Promises you couldn’t keep
Sounding too good to believe
You’re Magick Alecks

Loved By You (Carey Ott 12-20-2007)

I’ve been strained
Stretched too thin
I’ve been broken apart
Put back together again
All the while
Being loved by you

Stripped of possessions

Always distractions a caustic reaction gonna save my getaway
Glue come unfastened whenever you’re dancing on a tightrope borderline
Metal feather attraction the instant defection to run run hide behind
Lily white vices and saccharin ties if she could sing you a lullaby
She could scream you a lullaby
She could scream you a lullaby

Collision addiction a drag out fight and a face full of water spit
Basic gut feeling I won’t be the goat for your late night undertow
It’s your late night undertow
Your late night undertow

Love is a many splintered scene

You let me down all the time
Let me down all the time
You
You let me down all the time

I forgive you
You don’t have to stay
You don’t have to stay

I won’t keep you
You don’t have to wave
You don’t have to wave goodbye

You left me down on my knees
You left me down on my knees
Yeah you
You left me down on my knees

I forgive you
You don’t have to lie
You don’t have to lie

I won’t keep you
You don’t have to say
You don’t have to say goodbye

You let me down all the time
You left me down on my knees
You let me down all the time

A digital man in an analog world
All the king’s horses and all the king’s girls
Were traveling light for a night in Seville

Beer breath suitcase coffee and cream
You should never wake a boy up out of his dream
You get too many nerves in a white limousine
Too many nerves in a white limousine

(What you gonna do) Mr. Digital Man
(What you gonna do) Hold on to what you can
(What you gonna do) All your circuitry
(Ahhhhhh) Will be obsolete by two thousand twenty

An analog kid with a rifle he hid
It was under his bed with the rest of the dead

too much red wine
am i justifying
what it is i want
too much escape
not enough facing
what it is i need

in a song for a bedroom wall
i thought i could break your fall
with a song for a bedroom wall
yeah i thought i could break your fall

too much caffeine
now i gotta screen the calls
i spent too much time
lying in the same room
to figure out who i am

in a song for a bedroom wall
i thought i could break your fall
with a song for a bedroom wall
yeah i thought i could break your fall

everything seems so perfect
and calm
in a four-walled womb

There’s something tight inside my chest
Something I can’t expose
It’s weighing me down like a box of bones
I think it’s gonna explode

Are you a grain of sand?
Are you the son of man?

God?

Waiting for hours, hours on end
It’s getting closer to closing in
You’re all I cannot understand
Or everything I can imagine

I try to keep you in
The sorry shape of a man
I use you for my cause
Kill you with reckless abandon

God?

Don’t wanna doubt you I confess
This world sure seems a great big mess
I’ve had my doubt for a long, long while

I got my own way into this rut
The only way I can
Hear a song sing along to this
And would you mind if I let you in

If I knew how to tell the truth
It’s the only way I’d know how
Let my fingers dance with this guitar
And let the music out
Let the music out

Now we can dance slow
Just like lovers can do
Anything I say tonight is true

I can see you got tomorrow on your mind
Let’s stay awhile in the here and now
I got a song that we can sing
Make an easy sound

If you come in close you can hear it
Clear your mind of all its distraction
Baby when you really need it

I can tell you’re thinking where’s this gonna lead
You’ve convinced yourself I’m gonna leave
If you could only see yourself through my eyes
You would know without a doubt how I feel

Emilie, Emilie
Warm me up just like the sun
I believe what I see
You’re the only one
In my head in my heart
Don’t you know that’s where you are
What I want
You and me
Emilie

Faded letters empty lockets in a drawer
Empty promises you’ve heard before
What makes me so different from every other guy
When it gets tough I will stay by your side

Emilie, Emilie

get out alive

you know what you gotta do
get out alive

call them but no one's there
look up into the air
they're everywhere you can see
they're people like you and me

devils who comb the streets
looking for crooked beats
watch how they move their feet
watch how they move their feet

get out alive

devils who know control
dealt with a broken nose
but they don't pick the fights
they don't dim the lights

what you're saying you're gonna see
what you're giving is what you get
but you don't know it yet
you don't know it yet

get out alive

Wave your friend goodbye
Look at the ground
And save your last reply
You’re not gonna change their minds

Told you a hundred times
I can’t bring you happiness

Turn and walk away
Smile to yourself
And say you drew the line
To love of another kind

People do it all the time
Run until we find some happiness

Waiting there all alone
Trying to get you home

Happiness was waiting all along
All along

Happiness was waiting all along

Lately I’ve been feeling lonely
Lately I’ve been feeling blue
Cause I haven’t seen your smile dear
Living every day without you

Now I know you’re thinking of me
Want to hold me through the night
Your embrace is what I need now
To make me feel oh so right

In a little while we’ll be loving each other
In a little while you’ll be right by my side
In a little while now
Not so soon

Got no worries in our way boy
It’ll be just you and me
Holding on tight to forever
Loving you just sets me free

In a little while we’ll be loving each other

Another summer’s come
Come to pass me by
Winter’s wind is cold
Leaves me feeling dry

So tired of thinking
I could make this mess on my own
It’s no use in trying
To figure out how far gone

Leave it alone
No mistakes to be made
If we leave it up to fate

Leave it alone
Quit waiting wondering
Whose side is right or wrong

I think you’ll find it easier
If you find your own way home

Leave it alone

You came into this world
With a soul and a name
There’s nothing you can win
There’s no one you can blame

So stop all your worrying

The sweet smell drifts up and drags down my defenses
I listen to the sound the rain plays on your petals
And I let the warmth awaken me and drag me to my senses
The sweet smell drifts up and the sweet sun floats on in

For you real, live flowers

Look at how you’ve grown
In twos and threes and fours
Will you dance outside my door?
Live flowers

You real, live flowers

The sweet smell drifts up and the sweet sun floats on in

Look at how you’ve grown
In twos and threes and fours
Will you dance outside my door?
You real, live flowers
You real, live flowers

Open up my eyes
I open up my heart
Give me new love

Can you pull me out
Of the dark I tripped and fell into
Would you let me see?

By your light

You always seem to know
Every careless move I’ll make
But you let me make it anyway

Motivate me with your love
Give me something I can trust
Then I promise I won’t let you go

I used to hide
I was so afraid
To let you see

Who’s behind these eyes?
What’s inside my heart?
Give me new love

I know it’s mine

‘Cause you always seem to know
Every careless move I’ll make
But you let me make it anyway

On the other side of your eyes
Are mountains I can climb
The ocean and its tide
Washing over me

Birds are singing their song
In a hundred year old tree
Patiently awaiting the sun
As it rises in the east

But the sun doesn’t seem to set
On the places I’ll never forget
Like the other side of your eyes

I feel the heat of a fire
But I don’t see any smoke
The cinders flash and they float
Through an ageless night

From the other side of the sky
I witness the angels view
The world looks safe and new
On the other side of your eyes

Now love wasn’t made to dissolve

Picture yourself in a strange place walking
Minding the rats in the subway coffin
I don’t know if you’re saying something
I can’t hear what you sell me

You may recall his famous face
You can recall his sudden breath
You come here to take your dying breathing
At least that’s what you told me

Looking around to see the town
Looking around to see the cold town

Slow suicide, sigh
Slow suicide, sigh, sigh

Smoke on buses crowded trains
He might remember why he came
He come here to take his dying breathin
Least that’s what he told me

Looking around to see the man

Communist decline party chicks in line
I want a Soviet lovemate
Red flag hammer sickle
Can’t afford a bicycle
I want a Soviet lovemate
I want a Soviet lovemate
I want a Soviet (you want a Soviet)

Chernobyl suicide
Mail order Ruskie bride
I want a Soviet lovemate
Pimple face Casanova
Wanna marry Kournikova
I want a Soviet lovemate
I want a Soviet lovemate

No more cold war now there’s a new score
Of young girls with tight skin that wanna be American
Now I see the spoils of victory
What used to be the enemy has given up so much to me